Road to becoming an improved person in all areas of my life; motherhood, health, religion, appearance, organization, financial.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Sick or Lazy

My fat ass didn't go to the gym once again. Ugh!
AND I'm a bottomless pitt. I eat basically no stop when I get home, I had chips, baked potatoes with dressing, 6 tacos, and I'm sure I'm forgetting some things.

I was really tired last night or I'm getting sick. Hubby even wanted to converse with me in bed (something I tell him he never wants to do) and what do I do, fall asleep. I just couldn't stay awake. Ever had that heavy sleep feeling, where you are trying to fight it to stay away but it just wins in the end - well that's how I felt.

The plan for today is to go straight to the gym after work. On a good note I have been walking for both breaks and lunch in the cold. I think that walking in the cold burns more calories, yeah I'm going with that.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

What happened to I R-E-F-U-S-E

My fat ass didn't go to the gym last night.

I let myself be suckered by the hubby, and taking an hour nap didn't help either. I got guilted by the fact that my son is sick, and the hubby is in a lot of ankle pain.

Did I stay and do anything productive to help either one of them? NO!

Tonight is a different story, I have to get my butt moving again.
I need the money and I need my health.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Nooooooooooooooooooooo

I gained 2 pounds. T-W-O pounds.

I just can't bare it; my fat ass is going back to the gym tonight. I'm 11 pounds away from were I started, I just can't go back. I just can't and I wont. I refuse. R-E-F-U-S-E. refuse.

I did some pretty bad food choices for lunch but no more allowing Anna to persuade me from my lunch plans. I let her twist my arm too easily.

I wasn't going to walk every lunch hour, but fuck it now. I have to, not a choice. I'll be walking every lunch house and 15 minute breaks. That's 1 1/2 hours of walking a day and then heading to the gym every day until the kids start another sport. I have no excuse not to go on the weekend now too.

My niece put me to shame this holiday weekend. We were in Vegas for thanksgiving; she found a gym and went 2 out of the 3 1/2 days she was there. Shame on me.

Monday, November 20, 2006

6.1

I gained 6.1 pounds in one month.
Can't cry over it, just have to loose them again.

That increases the amount of weight is Have to loose by 5.7 pounds but it's doable.
I've also changed my weigh-in days to Tuesdays due to the Holidays. I would have had 3 Mondays with no weigh-in, not a good thing. I'm really going to be accountable for this, so it's best that I weigh in every week.

Money

When my last living grandmother passed away in 2004 I was given a proposition; loose 50 pounds and I would get $1,000. Money has never been a driven force for me, so the deadline for that proposition came and went. It was later told to me that even though the deadline had passed the offer would be ongoing.

I need the money now. I needed the money back then but now I really need the money. I have 30 pounds to go, and I am going to use the original deadline date, but obviously a different year - Valentines day. 10 pounds a month, a bit of a challenge but it is doable but I have faith that my goal will be accomplished.

Football season ends this coming Saturday. I'll be heading back to the gym, need to tone up everything that has gone flabby again. Thankfully, I've only gone flabby and not gained the weight back. I'll take flabby with a smile.

I've changed my weigh-in days for Mondays, just for the fact that today is Monday. I'll be skipping weigh next week because I will be off work. Skipping next week might be a good thing since it will be right after Thanksgiving dinner and Vegas.