Thursday, July 09, 2015
The devil on your shoulder can be evil!
My first day in Kitosis was great until I got home. The Teriyaki Chicken Sub I hadn’t eaten for dinner the night before was calling my name and to be completely honest I only fought it for about half an hour. So I ate a 6 inch with extra sugary teriyaki sauce and since for some reason I was jonesing for sugar I had a bowl and a half of Fruitloops.
So I was fine for the rest of the night, I resisted Costco Pizza and then I saw a bag of chips. So I had snack size Lay’s Sour Cream & Onion AND Cheeto’s. I wasn’t craving salt, the chips didn’t even taste good, I didn’t even enjoy them but I ate them.
This morning I lazily prepared my food for the day, I really didn’t want to but just because I had a bad night I wasn’t going to throw the towel (like every other single time.) So I made 2 of the meals, the protein shake and the green tea.
I did have a rather proud moment, had an appointment with the pain management doctor this morning, & had a little time to kill so I went to Walgreen’s. The first thing I wanted to do was go get a Hostess Yellow Cupcake, and then maybe a candy, if not maybe just something that is not protein and loaded with sugar and carbs BUT I did what I went to do and resisted. Same thing at Ralph’s. I wanted to dip my face in frosting heaven, I was already talking myself into it.
“No one will know”
“You already screwed up yesterday”
“You know you are not going to do all 7 days”
“You are going out of town tomorrow, you know you not going to do this.”
“Just start on Monday again.”
I fought hard, and actually talked back to that voice in my head.
Now, I still have a few hours for the rest of the day, and I’m going out of town tomorrow & have a few things to do after work. I know that I’m not going to stick with the meal plan, I should be optimistic and say yes, I will conquer, I will win BUT I’m being realistic and not setting myself up for a huge failure. I’ll just make a much better eating choice when I eat out.
at 3:44 PM